Life In Lockdown 2.0: An Update

November 21, 2020 in Lifestyle

Personal posts don’t happen all too often at Happily Ever Homebody. But since I’ve been AWOL for a few weeks, I wanted to give you a little life update so let’s just get straight into it.


Where Have I Been?


Well… just days before lockdown 2.0 was due to start, my lovely grandad tested positive for COVID. Since the start of the crisis, this was what I’d been most scared of happening. And it had happened. He fell under several ‘high risk’ groups since he had multiple cancers, kidney failure and diabetes as well as being in his 70s. But here’s the thing: he did everything right. Shielding. Staying at home except for his dialysis and to receive medical treatment. And he caught COVID in hospital.

My mental health plummeted at this point. I live with severe anxiety anyway but this whole situation was so difficult that I started having recurrent panic attacks and noticed the red flags of a depressive episode creeping in. And so I had to switch off, try to self-care and just wait and hope.

Every day that hope grew a little bit stronger. And he seemed to be getting better before it all came crashing down. He had a stroke followed by a heart attack and organ failure. And then he passed away. Three days earlier, all he had was a bad cough.

It doesn’t get easier talking about it. Or living without him. It’s a loss our family will never truly be able to get over.

And then six short days later, we lost our beloved guinea pig, Heidi. It was absolutely heartbreaking and I miss her every second of every day. She’s now buried in a flowerpot outside and we have plans to create a beautiful fairy garden for her next week.

So that’s why I’ve been AWOL for the last few weeks. It’s just been a lot to deal with. My mental health has really taken a beating. But for the most part, I’m doing okay.


Thank you so much for stopping by and reading what I have to say. The next few weeks are going to be incredibly stressful so posting will be somewhat sporadic but I’ll post whenever I can.

Stay safe out there!

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5 Comments

  • Heather November 21, 2020 at 9:27 pm

    Hayley , I’m so sorry to hear about your losses. Sending lots and lots of hugs to you. I’ve had ups and downs with my anxiety in the past and taking time to check in with yourself is a good thing.

    A fairy garden sounds lovely, it’ll be beautiful x

    • Hayley December 7, 2020 at 4:19 pm

      Thank you Heather, that means so much xx

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  • Simona December 29, 2020 at 10:08 am

    I am incredibly sorry about your losses, it’s never easy and COVID has certainly made it even worst…I hope you can see a bit of a light at the end of the tunnel, it never is easy and probably won’t help, but putting it down in words can become your escape too.
    I hope you had a nice Christmas and wishing you a great New Year, with the hope all you wish for becomes true.
    S x

    • Hayley January 1, 2021 at 3:06 pm

      Thank you so much Simona x

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